Thursday, May 11, 2006 @9:43 AM

god, when will i get to feel you? when? i don't know. but i guess i'm already desperate. i don't know what i'm going to do without you. i need you lord. i want you to be my reason. i'm trying hard to love those who hate me, but it's hard without you by my side to guide and help me. i need you lord, come touch me.

i'm worried. worried that it's gonna be over soon. and it's all just gonna disapear just like that? i see the way you talk about candice and celestine now, i begin to wonder what you'll say about me if we ever broke up. i'm losing it. really. i don't know what to say or do with you. and i just.. i'm just worried. i guess i should learn how to trust, trust that love can be grown over time. i trust in that. and i believe that one day i'll grow to love you more. i get jealous. i know you don't, but i do. you keep talking about charmaine.. or whatever her name is, and you term her as your best friend. ever thought of my feelings? i don't want to say much, but deep inside it really hurts. like as if.. i'm not important to you. i don't know, it's just how i feel. i want you to be mine, it's selfish, but i'm being truthfull here. i want you to be no one else's but mine.

judging me, do you know how much it hurts bojia? you don't even know me. and it's like.. i thought you were nice. it just hurts. and well, yes whatever people say about me, even if they know or don't know me, has an impact on me. it's just whether i show it anot. and i wish you'd see how much you've hurt me. cause of those few words you said. i've done nothing wrong to you, so why? why judge me like that? is it fair?

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