jesus, i try, i try so hard to look at the positive side of life, to look at the positive side of everything. but god, i keep failing. lord, it's not easy and i need you to help me. help me to look beyond the negative things, to see the positive side of it. lord help me. i don't want to live in that shallow pit of self pity anymore, i want to come out of it lord, and i want to be able to smile and show the world, i'm happy cause i have you lord. i want the world to see how strong i'll stand when circumstances come cause i have you. i want the world to see what a wonderful god you are. lord, help me. help me to step out of this shallow pit of self pity. teach me lord, help me out of this pit, so i may see the light, so i may see the light once again.
god you know i try, but i'm afraid, i'm afraid i do it wrongly. one step and everything may just go all wrong again. lord, i pray for the wisdom to know what to say, to know what to do lord. cause i know i'm foolish, i'm not good with relations. lord, so here i am asking that you grant me the wisdom to know what to do and what to say. that i may be an example for you. i need help lord, cause i know lord by myself there's nothing i can do. help me lord. help me through this time, where they have soften their hearts lord, and i just have to say the right things. lord, help me through this. and thank you lord, thank you for making their hate for me subside, thank you. i know it wouldn't have been if not for you, and i thank you. thank you for your forgiveness, thank you for your mercy. i love you lord.
god, when i look up to you, i'm amazed. sincerely amazed. at your works oh god. i look at all these things you have made. you are a perfect god, yet you still love us, the unworthy. you love the unworthy lord. and i thank you. i am going to love people like how you loved me. it's not going to be easy, but lord, for you i will. i will. lord, control this temper of mine lord, give me the peace and serenity that you have lord, that i may have the patience with people. that i won't lose my temper so easily, that i will take the time to listen to what they have to say before scolding them lord. help me.
god, i'm desperate for you. cause without you lord, there's really nothing i can do. nothing at all. thinking of my life, where would i be if not for you. i wouldn't be alive if you hadn't seen my through my op when i was 3. i wouldn't be alive if you hadn't had let grandma see that cancerous thing on my head, and seeing me through the op to cut it off. i wouln't be alive lord, if you hadn't kept me from all the accidents that may have happened but you prevented. but lord, most importantly i wouldn't be alive if you hadn't died for me. lord, i thank you. it must have been so difficult, so difficult to see your son die for us, but yet you willingly gave him to us. thnak you. i love you father.
god, i thank you for oswald. he's such a blessing. thank you for putting him in my life to cheer me up when i'm down. thank you for putting him there in my life to always remind me, how imporant you really are. and though things were tough between me and him, lord you saw us through. thank you lord. thank you for making such a wonderful person, someone who i just couldn't seem to find in the past. thank you lord. thank you for allowing me to meet him, thank you lord for giving us that chance. thank you lord. but lord, teach me to put you before him. teach me lord, for this is something i'm so guilty of. i don't want to live in his light, but yours. i don't want to take you for granted like how i used to lord. pls lord, teach me. i'm such a uneducated person lord, and i need you lord, need you to teach me all these things that i do not know. i here by admit, i'm foolish, i follow the ways of the world, so lord i'm here begging you to teach me how to love you more and more, and to become more and more like you.
god, i thank you for giving me such a great life lord. i know, you didn't promise us a life with no ups and downs, but lord, i know you will be with us through all those downs and ups. you will be there to help us stand back up, you will dry our tears. you will be there to comfort us and understand us when no one does. thank you lord. thank you for your promises. in the tough times lord, remind me, remind me that you're always here with me. teach me how to open my bible and pray. teach me not to be lazy. teach me to always love you. to always trust in you. lord through this life of mine, i pray you use me lord. just use me. i your servent is willing to be used by you. come lord, use me. here i am lord, use me. just come down, tell me what to do. tell me where to go. and i will do it, i will go. lord, with no hesitations, i will go for you. lord, just come and tell me.
lord i pray for the orphans lord. you said, let the little children come to me and i will give them rest. lord, give these children rest lord. and for those who do not know you lord, let then know you lord. cause they are just so innocent, so pityful. lord, you love them, take care of them. when they are just all so alone, so fearful, lord, put your arms around them, tell them you are they're father and you lvoe them. lord, they need you. they really do. i can't imagine what life would be without my paarents, and i don't wish to imagine, but lord, you made them they way they are for a reason, but besides the reason lord, be there for them. just lord, be so real to them. love them lord, like how a father and mother would. lord, be there for them. thank you lord.
amen