rah (: i'm feeling happy, so i shall dedicate a post to you!

eh i should say, you've been a great headache, as well, as a great joy (: haha. and why headache you may ask my dear, well, cause you're forever and ever asking for a fight -.- haha. even with the christina. can't imagine if i hadn't pulled you away. be more tolerant lah you! (: control is the key. yeah man. and i know you can do it cause you say you're pro right (: haha. and if one day you can do that, it'll really be my happiest day. you said you'd make me happy till i can't be happier, and that day when i can't be happier will be when you can control (:

and great joy! ((: since i knew you i guess, you were a great joy (: since i saw you on the mrt, you were such a nice person to talk to, so easy to get along with (: although i didn't know you, i could just talk to you, so simple. i didn't feel awkward, i didn't feel ashamed, i felt so.. relaxed (: yeah, that's what you made me feel. and i guess, after i got off the mrt, you were on my mind. saw you in church on sat, and it made me feel like i was the most fortunate girl on this earth. as we got to know each other better, we played stupid games. haha. i remember last year, we played the marrying thing -.- haha. and i scolded you for keep calling me your wife. i scolded you saying that eugene would get angry if he saw. remember? maybe you don't, but i do (: yah, and all these things made us closer friends. and from that closer friends, we drifted apart again cause you had your stead, so i backed off. but well, this year, you had to make me play that marrying game again -.- haha. and we became so much closer than before (: i enjoyed talking to you, i enjoyed your very company on saturday, but yet, i didn't dare go any closer, cause i knew you were in a relationship. and when i heard you wanted to break with her, i shall not mention her name, cause you don't like it, i was so overjoyed. maybe i didn't show it, maybe i tried to encourage you to not break, but in my heart, i was so truly happy. after you broke with her, i guess i didn't feel that bad, like i breaking someone's relationship apart. and i guess sitting with you every saturday made me more attached to you, more glued to you (: that day, 150406, you teared, it pained me so much but yet, i didn't know what i could do. i didn't dare touch you, but i just brushed your hand, trying to say in my way, don't cry, i'm always here. and that night, i guess we got together. still remember i was very grumpy in my grandma's house, but it made me all cheer up. it was the happiest day in my memory. and though it was not easy for me to love you, given some circumstances, i still loved you. cause you were different. you would run in the rain just to see me home (: you would play the guitar for me just before i leave for another coutry. you could tell the difference over the phone whether i was having a flu or i was crying. you could just make me laugh with your stupid racist jokes. you could just make it all just right although at times they weren't. you would take my eeky, full of tears tissue from me and give me another one. you would ask someone to pray for me when you knew i was down. you didnt give up on me, when i gave up on us. you didn't give up on the love, though people pressurized you to do so. you are such a wonderful person (: and we've grown. i've grown too. i've learnt, you taught me, i won't look at the way people look at me, but i'm gonna love you cause you're so special (: and you know, i won't give up on you ever again. cause when i did, my whole world turned upside down. i put shampoo on my body and body wash on my hair 3 times before i got it right. that's what you can do to me my dear. see how imporant you are to me (: you are the only one who can make me unable to sleep that i have to take sleeping pills. you are the only one who can make me smile, like i've never did before. only you can do the things you do, that touch me in such a special way, that well, no one could ever do before. the day you held my hand, you made my heart skip a beat. yeah, now i know how it feels for your heart to skip a beat. you used a sweet wrapper, smart in a way (: when i least expected it, you did it. you made my heart feel so warm, made me feel so loved. you know, the day i cried so badly on sat, your hug, it made me all so much better. i so much wanted to hold on to you and never let you go, but you had to go. i love you so much my dear (: and nothing, yes nothing is gonna tear us apart again.

I LOVE YOU (: