(: thanks joan!

i'll let it all out here. (:

god, i'm gonna let go, and let you have it all. maybe why everything's not been going the way that i deem "right" is cause i'm not looking at it from your point of view. maybe i shouldn't be so selfish in my way of thinking, maybe i should just let go and let god. i should trust that in everything, it's part of your perfect plan. god, my dear father, help me to let go lord. i've been trying to let go, but it's not easy. i know you'd never let me go through it all, so lord, help me learn to let go. many things in your plan are different from what i'd want them to be, but lord, help me to trust in you lord. i give them all to you, lay them all down at your feet, and trust that whatever happens lord, it's all cause it's for the extention of your kingdom. teach me lord, how to let go, and let god. thank you.
lord, i thank you so much lord, for the friends you've put in my life. many people come and go, but you've put these special people here to encourage me. thank you. you've put firstly, joan here lord. i need to thank you so much for such a beautiful woman (: god in heaven, you've put this wonderful person here to love me, understand me, and the words she say lord, they never fail to touch my heart. things she say, have never failed to make me realise the goodness that you have given me. and lord, she's such a beautiful person, that i pray lord, that you bless her lord. for she has loved me, like how you would. god, in all that i've been through you've placed her in my life, to help me through it. giving me the support and love i need. lord, without her, i don't know where's i be. lord, love her, bless her. give her what she needs lord, cause she's given so unselfishly. i thank you lord, for such a wonderful sister in christ (:
lord, next i would like to thank you for irwin lord. yes, lord i know he's not good in his words, and sometimes i can't help but get angry with him, but lord, his words of encouragement always never fail to cheer me up. lord, he's always been such a friend, to talk to me when i' m down, and when i'm happy lord, he never fails to make me laugh even more. and lord, such a friend, where do i find? i thank you lord, for letting me know this friend, for being able to know him in such a special way. he's a special guy, with many talents lord, and use him lord, in a way that no one could ever think of. i thank you for him, my dear nephew. and i wish lord, that you'll bring him back to you, help him love you more and more, to learn to rely on you like never before. thank you lord, for such a wonderful nephew (:
another person now, i'd like to thank you for lord, is jared. lord, i thank you for such a wonderful friend who would call me and talk to me when i'm bored, when i'm down. thank you lord for such a humorous friend lord, who would make me laugh till i cry. i thank you lord. thank you lord for him, cause lord, he knows me well lord. without me having to say much, he understands. i thank you lord, cause he's such a marvolous person. that no one is really like him. he's a real blessing to me, to my life. lord, i thank you for him. take control of his life lord, whatever bumpy roads he's going through now, take control of his wheel lord, and let him know you're in control of everything. let him know you're always there for him, and that if he needs someone, he can always come to me.
malcolm, lord i'd like to thank you for him though we're not that close lord, you've placed him in my life. you've placed him in my life to get me through that time lord, when everything seemed wrong. he was such a conforter, such a good friend. though lord, we're not close anymore, or never was to start with, bless him lord, in everything he does. that in his walk with you, nothing would go wrong. lord, keep him in your arms, and love him, like no one has loved him before. be so real to him lord, take care of him lord.
geraldine, oh god, please bless her lord. what a blessing she has been to others, how she's been there to support, love unconditionally, and give her life to you. lord, she comes from a broken home lord, so be her father lord, be so real to her. cause lord, without a father, the loss in her heart lord, replace her earthly's father love with yours lord. sometimes she cries so bad in church and i don't know what to say. lord, be there to speak to her lord. she's such a special person lord, someone who will insist on someone feeding her, be real to her lord. bless her in abundance, for all the things she's done in your name lord, bless her. be just so real to her.
many more people i want to thank, but in my heart, these are the main people i find so special. such a wonder to me. and i pray god, that you bless them and through it all, be there with them (: amen