Monday, June 12, 2006 @8:43 PM

you know, i really put alot of effort into this relationship. i really do. considering and comparing it to the past experiences. i can say this from the bottom of my heart, i put in the most effort into this relationship, try to keep it going, try not to quit, try not to get hurt, try to be there for you no matter what i'm feeling. and now, i can't help but feel so tired, tried.

you can't even remember the date we got together. it doesn't matter if i say it here, cause you can't even be bothered to read it. baby, how can you not remember. i promted you, made it so obvious, but still you didn't get it. any idea how hurting it is? i made it oh so very obvious. and after i said it was our day, you just said, oh sorry, i forgot. i don't know, but i guess it shows how important this day is to you.

you know, this is not the only thing that hurt me. on saturday, yes i know your parents were there, i already kept my distance from you. but, i just don't understand why can't you be confident of me? when i laughed, you scolded. what do you want from me. do you want me to be this quiet, guai girl? well, sorry cause i'm not all that. you may never feel this way, but if one day you were to ever meet my parents, i'll want you to be yourself, and tell you this "baby, don't worry. i'm sure they'll love you. not cause they're easy going, not cause they're nice people, but cause i have confidence in you. i know they'll love you cause you are you" maybe i'm not all that perfect to you, i don't know. i'm trying, so hard.

i really feel like giving up. so bad. cause it's not working, and you don't even seem to appreciate it ):

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