Tuesday, July 04, 2006 @4:04 PM

oswald my dear (:

oswald, i thought about it for a whole night, and this whole morning, and my mind's still the same. let's end it here. yes, it's because of what people say, it's because of the hurt you've caused too. i'm not saying that i still bear the grudge, i'm not angry anymore. cause i know no one's perfect. and that was your only mistake i guess. oswald, it's not that i don't love you anymore, but tell me, is it right to be in a relationship at this age? we both know it's not. and i don't want to dissapoint god anymore. i've dissapoitned him time and time again, and there was once someone said, if he forgives you, then don't abuse it. well, i guess i've been abusing it, taking it for granted, his love, his mercy and now it's time i give something up for him. like you said, god's first in your life, and so is he in my life. so i'm sorry. and it's not only that, for now, i don't even know what love is anymore. i really don't. i thought i knew, but now, after what happened, i'm questioning love, is there even such a thing? well yeah, maybe there is, but not between girls and guys at this age i guess. oswald, you are a great guy, and i mean it when i say it. you've brought me much joy in the past 3 months, and much hope and laughter. i want you to be happy oswald, and i know i can't bring you that happiness, i'm no where near it. i want you to be happy (: find someone who will make you happy. someone who makes you laugh the way you make me laugh. the way you make me smile. find that person, and when you find her, show her to me (: cause i want to see her, give you my fullest blessings. oswald, it's not easy to let you go, it was not easy for me to come to this decision, but i have. and the main reason oswald, is that, i don't know what love is anymore. i doubt it. to me, in my dictionary now, there's no such thing as love. and well, i don't want to lead you on, i don't want to give you any false hopes, so let's not hold on to something that won't last, not hold onto something that is not real. oswald, let's face it, there was never love between us, maybe it was infactuation, i don't know. but it's not love. we're too young to know what love really is. and oswald, you have been a wonder to my life. thank you, but i can't continue anymore. cause i really doubt if love even exists. i'm sorry.

it was not easy to come to this decision at all, i cried during geog, but i guess no one saw.

i don't know what's in your mind girl, one min you're so nice to me, the next you're the meanest person i ever know. what should i think of you?

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