AND WHAT RIGHT DO YOU HAVE TO SAY ALL THOSE?!

YOU TYPE LIKE AS IF YOU’RE THE ONE BEING HURT, YOU’RE THE ONLY ONE WHO’S TRYING TO MOVE ON AND I’M TRYING TO KEEP YOU BEHIND. BUT PLS LAH, YOU CALL ME INDECISIVE? WHAT RIGHT DO YOU HAVE? TO ME, YOU’RE THE INDECISIVE ONE, THE ONE WHO CAN’T MAKE UP HIS MIND. THOSE TWO MONTHS, THEY WERE HELL FOR ME, AND NOW, IT’S MY FAULT THAT I’VE FINALLY MOVED ON? OH WOW. HAVE YOU EVER SPARED A THOUGHT THAT WHEN I WAS STRUGGLING IN THOSE TWO MONTHS, YOU NEVER ONCE SENT AN SMS TO ME, TO ASK ME HOW I AM. YOU NEVER ONCE CALLED, TO SHOW YOUR CARE. YOU NEVER ONCE SAID ANYTHING TO ME ON MSN. AND ALL THOSE WHILE, I WAS THE ONE ASKING YOU HOW YOU ARE, HOW YOU’RE FEELING. CAUSE I KNOW IT ISN’T EASY, I CARED. AND YOU DIDN’T EVEN SHOW A LEAST BIT OF CARE. MAYBE THAT’S YOUR WAY OF MOVING ON, NOT CARING, NOT APPRECIATING THE CARE I SHOW. THAT’S FINE, BUT WHEN I STOP CARING, DON’T ACCUSE ME, DON’T JUDGE ME. I STOP CARING, BECAUSE YOU SCOLD ME EVERYTIME I CARE. I STOP CARING BECAUSE YOU PUSHED ME AWAY EVERYTIME I TRIED TO HELP. THAT’S WHY I STOPPED CARING. AND NOW WHEN I FINALLY STOPPED CARING, YOU ACCUSE ME OF BEING WITH HIM. HOW NICE. ARE YOU THE ONE WHO’S INDECISIVE OR ME?!

YOU ACCUSE ME OF ME AND HIM, SAYING JARED SAID SO BLAH BLAH. BUT OH WOW, DID YOU EVEN ASK ME BEFORE YOU ASSUMED? DID YOU EVEN TRY TO ASK AROUND BEFORE YOU CAME TO THE CONCLUSION I “BETRAYED” YOU. CAUSE FRANKLY I DIDN’T. I STAYED IN THAT STUPID DEEP PIT FOR FREAK TWO MONTHS, FOR YOU. IS THAT NOT ENOUGH FOR YOU? IF IT ISN’T, THEN HOW ABOUT TWO SCARS ON MY HAND, FOREVER I’LL REMEMBER YOU, CAUSE THE SCARS WILL FOREVER BE THERE, TO REMIND ME. I’VE DID SO MUCH, I’VE SUFFERED SO MUCH, IS IT NOT FAIR THAT NOW I MOVE ON? ARE YOU SO BENT IN HOLDING ME BACK WHEN YOU DON’T EVEN CARE ABOUT ME AT ALL? IS IT FAIR TO ME?

WHEN I SAID YOU WERE SELFISH, I DID IT AFTER MUCH THINKING OKAY. I DIDN’T JUST SPURT OUT THOSE WORDS. YOU LOOK AT IT YOURSELF WILL YOU, LOOK AT HOW YOU NEVER CARED WHEN I WAS DOWN. LOOK AT IT, WHEN DID YOU EVER CHERISH ME? AND NOW WHEN I MOVE ON, YOU’RE SO SELFISH, YOU EXPECT ME TO BE STUCK HERE CAUSE OF YOU FOREVER? NO, I WON’T BE ALRIGHT. I WON’T. SO STOP IT.

STOP ACCUSING ME AND HIM. CAUSE ME AND HIM WERE NEVER A “WE”. I’M DISAPOINTED IN YOU, CAUSE THAT JUST SHOWS HOW MUCH YOU TRUST ME AND HIM AND YOURSELF. TRUST YOUR OWN JUDGEMENT. AM I THAT KINDA PERSON? HOW LONG DID I TAKE TO ACCEPT YOU? ABOUT 4 MONTHS? WILL I JUMP INTO SO FAST AGAIN? NO WAY. IS HE THAT KINDA PERSON? NO.

MAYBE IT’S MINE AND OS’S FAULT, WHATEVER. BUT IT’S DEFINITELY NOTHING TO DO WITH HIM. WHAT’S WITH DRAGGING HIM IN. YES HE IS IMPORTANT TO ME, BUT NOT TO THAT EXTENT WHERE I’M TOTALLY DEPENDENT ON HIM LIKE HOW I WAS ON OS. IT JUST HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH HIM, STOP ACCUSING HIM, CAUSE I KNOW HE’S NOT THAT KINDA PERSON, AND YOU ALL, STOP JUDING HIM, CAUSE YOU DON’T KNOW A THING ABOUT HIM. HE’S RIGHTEOUS OKAY. HE’S NOT SOME SHIT FLIRT. SO STOP JUDGING HIM. STOP HURTING HIS FEELINGS ANYMORE. CAUSE HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF SOMEONE JUDGED YOU THIS WAY! STOP IT, PUT YOURSELF IN HIS SHOES WOULD YOU!

YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO HOLD ME BACK. AND THERE’S NO NEED TO STAY BEHIND FOR SOME GUY WHO’S SO HYPOCRAITICAL. THERE’S NO POINT. IN SOMEONE WHO CHANGES EVERY TIME DIFFERENT PEOPLE ARE AROUND. IT’S SO FAKE. AND THERE’S NO POINT. I DON’T LOVE YOU, I DON’T LIKE YOU. AND YOU CAN’T USE THE WORD LOVE, CAUSE YOU DON’T KNOW A THING ABOUT IT. STOP USING IT LIKE SOME KINDA TOILET PAPER. CAUSE IT’S NOT.

ARGHHHH.

And the words you say hurt, cause you have no idea how hard I tried to move on, and now that I have, you come back and hurt me again. would you stop thinking about yourself for once, and think for me. )’: