Maybe what cher said is right. We all need time. We tend to always protect ourselves. But it takes time to reflect and finally come to terms that we ourselves are wrong. I think I feel bad, for always assuming. And I don’t feel like saying that they are also at fault anymore. I feel bad. she’s done a lot for us. And frankly speaking, I think we just don’t acknowledge that. And as much as we say we try, I think she’s been trying very hard too. And as much as we feel discouraged, I think we haven’t given her much encouragement either. I think we’re more guilty than she. Cause frankly speaking, we say we try, but we still roll our eyes, we still talk back. Is that called trying? I don’t know, but I feel like as if I haven’t cared for her as a teacher at all. So what right do I have, to want her to care for me. it just doesn’t work that way. how can you ask for something you don’t give? I don’t know. That’s how I feel.
Although I can say we were never close. But I feel most at ease with you. I don’t know. Maybe you have a lot inside, that you have never let out. And today when you cried, it just made me cry. And although I know you’re always cheerful and smiling, but I think sometimes we go overboard when we are having fun, and you’re the stake of that fun. I think you’re special, and I’m sorry for bullying you. I know I have never talked to you on a personal basis, but I wna say I love you. you’re a beautiful person.
I think we’ve grown closer. Unknowingly. We’ve learned how to stand up for each other, to be there for each other. We’ve all learned. We’ve all stopped bitching, we’ve all stopped gossiping. We’ve learned to treasure, because we have so little time left. Although he said that US splitting next year will be a good thing, you know something? I think we’ll never split. Or at least, I don’t want us to. Cause I do treasure. I’ve learnt to let down my guard with you guys, be my childish self. I mean, at least I know now, and I feel that I’m accepted this way. I don’t have to put on something I’m not. And I’ve learnt, to be myself with you guys. And it’s made me feel closer, and more loved. And I think, I love you guys loads.

To my birthday girl (:
Tomorrow’s your birthday darling (: and I know we’ve had our ups and downs, our bitchy fights and quarrels. Our cold wars and everything. But you know, I think you’ve helped me a lot. I don’t know, but you are strong. I know you are. You know, knowing you, is a blessing, that I seriously thank god for. For someone who shows me, how to not give in, to circumstance, no matter how hard. you showed me, how to stand strong. You know that? And then when I meet some circumstance, I think of you, and what you’re going through, I think it’s so much more. And I can’t help, but force myself to stand right back up again. you’re a blessing, cause remember, when we were close, I felt like so at ease. Really. Although I know, now it’s hard to build back that amount of trust, but I really think that it’s getting better everyday. And you know, I keep every letter you wrote for me, and sometimes I read through them. And I am so grateful, when I was down, you were there, to tell me that you understood how I felt. (: I love you Bianca loh (: you were born, to be a blessing. Maybe others will tell you otherwise, but then you can tell them straight to their face, “CHARIS LEONG THINKS I’M A BLESSING (: so shut up and get lost” cause I think you’ve been a blessing to my life. happy birthday. Keep shining.

I guess we all felt a lot today, and to see so many people to cry, I feel overwhelmed. But tomorrow will be a better day (:
Thank you for all those who remembered my birthday today (: for all the well wishes (: eh, Irwin, jolynn, yen jin, iris, cherie, jas, Bianca, Cheryl, nana, ken, seng chiy -.-, jerrold, jenzi, bee hiang, yuan yi, Claudia, xinyu, chinsian, mabel, Eugene, zi hui, michelle, and everybody lah (: thank you (: it made my day :D
I don’t need big presents, but I think the simplest thing today, that made me happy, was walking into class, and hearing iris siow say, happy birthday charis (: thank you iris. And it’s not big nice classy cakes that make me happy. But like the simple one I brought, and not having a knife. And lighting candles and blowing them out and then relighting and then blowing again and all over again. and playing with the cake. It made my day (:
Thank you, to everyone, cause it’s been a great day today (:

and what were you trying to imply? And you, I totally don’t know what’s wrong with you, but you totally didn’t make my day, and I thought you would. It’s not like as if I don’t wna go out with you. oh well. I guess impressions are hard to change