i need you; LeAnn rimes (:

I don't need a lot of things
I can get by with nothing
Of all the blessings life can bring
I've always needed something
But I've got all I want
When it comes to loving you
You're my only reason
You're my only truth

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you

You're the hope that moves me
To courage again
You're the love that rescues me
When the cold winds, rage
And it's so amazing'
cause that's just how you are
And I can't turn back now'
cause you’ve brought me too far

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do
I need you
I need you

irwin lau sent me this nice song :D and i think i'm addicted to it or something (: it's really nice (: down load it! and you'll see :D cause it's really nice! and the lyrics are nice too! and.. it's just super nice lah :D

i acknoledge the fact that sometimes people don't mean it, when they say hurting things. i know that most of the time, they don't mean a single thing. but thing is, don't push it. if you've said it once, i let it go, then stop right there. don't go on about it, cause giving in once, doesn't mean i'll keep giving in. cause i have my limits, just like everyone else. so pls, i have feelings too.

yesterday was one busy day (:
first thing in the morning, rushed down to church. for the riverlife kindgergarten performance. i think, and i felt quite redundant. maybe cause i didn't know what was going on, and well, no one wanted me in the way. so i guess. oh well (: and i think, kids are losing their innocence. i sat there, wathcing them play, not playing with them for the first time, and i looked, so much snatching, so much lies when i tried to stop the fighting. oh well (:
and i don't like the way people look at kids with special needs. i mean, it's not like they're inhuman or something. they feel too okay, and when he cried, you should treat him like any other kid, and go there and comfort him, and not just let him cry, and let him be, and let him cry so hard just cause he has a special need, and needs more patience, and more attention. cause to me, you're just shriking your responsibility. and not to mention, right in front of his face, saying that he was "problem kid #1, and the other is problem kid #2" i mean, yeah maybe like what you said, they don't understand, but if YOU, as a person who "cares" for them calls them that, and give them such a hurting expression, then what more the outside world? if YOU as a christian, can't bring yourself to love him, can't bring yourself to his level to talk to him, then why talk about the love of god? why be so christ righteous, when you can't even do a simple loving act for this child? i always thought you were nice, but i guess, impressions change. when i talk to kids, i'll bend down, cause i respect them, i don't want them to look up at me, cause i hate looking up to people too. so don't come preaching to me about how i shouldn't bend down and looking stupid and all, cause i don't care if i look stupid, i care about the relationship i have with those kids. so stop it, cause it's hurting to hear you say all those words. and i guess, it's all cause we're so imperfect, that we need god, not cause we deserve his love, but cause we're just too sinful, and we need his love to tide us through.
then after that, at about one plus, went to visit mae-ann at her house (: she's discharged, praise god (: this is unfair, she grew 4 cm after the op! and she was poking fun at me lah! so mean. and now, as usual, i'm shorter than her. lols. but it's alright, i don't mind, cause she deserves 4 cm after such a painful operation (: we talked, and well, i think she really cheered up when we went to visit her. her mum said she ate, more than she ever did after the op (: and that she really "perked" up alot. that's the word she used! and i'm glad, to be there for her, cause i would like someone to be there for me too, if i had to go through such a painful op.
then went to pasir ris to get my brother's birthday party stuff. troublesome boy! today's his party anyway :D but his birthday is on the 25th. so yeah (: i officially declare, that parties are expensive! the goodie bags itself cost about 150. =/ i hope he has fun today (: and i hope the party doesn't screw or something. oh, and pls, no rain (:
then i went to church. the sermon was confusing. in order to really know what it is to fear god, you have to love god. in order to really know what it is to love god, you must fear god. (: i didn't really understand at first, but i asked mum and she explained to me. it's like a relationship between the parents and a child. when the child is young, naturally he would obey the parents cause of the fear of what the parents can do to him. and it's at this stage, where if the child loves the parent or not is important. see, if the child doesn't love the parent, then when he grows up, there's no more fear, cause i mean, parents will somehow or rather lose their "power" sometime. so if there's no love, the child would just "break free" of the relationship with the parents. but if there's love, then the child, even when the parents have no control, and no say, the child will listen and will obey. cause he loves his parents, he doesn't want to hurt them, he doesn't want to see them sad. so he'll do anything, to make them happy, cause he fears them, and he loves them. yes, in my own words it seems rather messy, but that's the main point i guess. and pastor vincent lun asked a very good question, "in 2007, what would you want to bring with you to the next year?" and the answer, should be the very presence of god. cause with that, i have everything. and without it, i have nothing. to say for this year, 2006, i have god in my life, and that's what, brought me through all those tough times. thank you god (:
then i went to jayna's house for dinner (: okay this is sure on helluva' day isn't it! i ate a lot =/ greedy :D then we played taboo (: and then we watched johnny english? or something like that! it was fun, (: cause normally i don't play with the kids anymore. i talk with the adults, lols, antisocial me (: but today was fun, and i guess, it's not all that bad :D

okay that was my day :D a long tiring day (:

ps, irwin get well soon :D
pps, just a random thought, i miss 7 of us (:
ppps, i want to go to church today, but cause of my brother's birthday party i can't ):
pppps, joshua chua i had a cho to cheer you up yesterday, but i forgot to give it to you. next sunday maybe (: