and when i'm feeling like this, i realised somthing, the most important things, are these. my journal, the most important. to pen down the thoughts that no one knows. that sometimes when i write and write, i realise things i never even knew myself. my phone, cause it's with my phone, i realise how much people care with their sms-es, their calls. and i appreciate them alot. and music, it calms me down, helps me cry (:
i need these things, always. cause they're the things that get me through. but the most important, close to my heart, is my journal. cause it helps me know myself, much much better. better than i ever knew before.
i know it isn't easy, but when i see you so strong, i can't help but think i have to be strong too. yours is so much harder, i have to be as strong as you. i want to be as strong as you R. i hope you know who you are. i know it isn't easy. but you're so strong. and i'm, i look up to you. i want to be as strong as you. cause you just hold on, i shall too. you're my inspiration.
i'm in a posting mood. and today i'm feeling much better (: really much much better. i'm not sure if i can go to church later. but i promised jeron i'll try my best, so i guess i shall try my best.
strings
21st december
4pm
musical
anyone interested? i've got 2 tickets (: i've asked eugene already, so that's left with one. it'll be a nice experience (: i promise. anyone interested?
this is my prayer, that everyone in the world, be happy (: be happy in the lord.
-you-
i have no idea what's on your mind right now. but frankly speaking, i don't wish to know. cause what if it's something i don't wish it is. i don't know. i know i've let you down, i know i wasn't there when you needed someone most. but you know, i don't think i would have been that someone even if i were there. it was painful, and it is upsetting. but who knows. maybe you're happier now. i hope you're happier now. cause it was a very painful decision. and i still mean my forever, and i still miss you so.
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