sometimes;
after i make up my mind,
i hope you respect that decision instead of pushing me with no where else to go.

hm merry christmas everyone (:
it's that time of year again. and i was just thinking back, and looking at how far i've come, in a blink of an eye. last year's christmas, seemed like just yesterday. and it's rather weird, for time to pass so quickly. knowing i haven't really treasured my time. regrets, they come for unfufiled dreams. i guess i thought i could do so much more this year than i actually have. but i guess, it's alright. i can always do i next year. and next year, i'll make sure i'll do it. i've a life list now (: with all the things i want to do with my life. so i don't just think about it, and forget about it the next moment. but i have a constant reminder, i'm sure that way, i'll do more of what i want to do.

well, christmas is here (: and i'm beginning to wonder, how many people actually know the real meaning of christmas. jesus came down on this earth, he was born as a baby. and at 33, he died for you and me. for our sins. no one's perfect, everyone sins. he came down, to die for our sins. so that we may go to heaven. he took it all, when he was crucified on the cross that day, when he died on earth. but he didn't just die, he didn't just end it all there, he rose again three days later, and he went back to heaven. he suffered in hell, for us, for those three days. and he rose again, and went back to heaven. it's not just a myth or legend. it's recorded in history. it's the truth. and how great is his love, to die for us, when we don't deserve it. how great.

he doesn't promise a life without problems, but he promises a life with problems, but he promises strength for us to go through them. see the catch now? he'll provide the strength. cause he loves us, for everything we are. he hates the sin, but he loves the sinner. complete acceptance.

and to believe in him, that's all you need, to go to heaven. to admit you're a sinner, to ask for forgiveness, and to ask for him to come into your heart. that's all that's needed. just open up your heart, and ask him in.

and you may ask, is it really that simple? well, no. there'll be so many trails, and everything. but don't worry, you'll have Him with you to go through it all. so if it's simple, not really. but if you ask if it's tough, not really too. cause you've got the almighty.

just pray, open up your heart and ask him in (:

before the world began,
you were on his mind.
and every tear you cried,
is precious in his eyes.

because of his great love,
he gave his only son.
and everything was done,
so you would come.

come to the father,
though your gift is small.
broken hearts, broken lives,
he will take them all.
the power of his word, the power of his blood,
and everything was done,
so you would come.

nothing you can do,
to make him love you more.
and nothing that you've done,
could make him close the door.

because of his great love,
he gave his only son.
and everything was done,
so you would come.

come to the father,
though your gift is small.
broken hearts, broken lives,
he will take them all.
the power of his word, the power of his blood,
and everything was done,
so you would come.

i hope this song touches your heart, like it touched mine. nothng you can do, to make him love you more. cause he alrady loves you so so much. Jesus loves you. no matter what your circumstances are, he wants to be there with you. every tear you cried, which you think no one knows off, no one bothers, he knows, he was right there beside you, wanting to wipe your tears away and it bothers him so much. so let him wipe the tears away, let him bring the genuine joy in. He loves you.

merry christmas, everybody.