DO YOU THINK THAT IT'S ENOUGH. I WENT THERE, AND I GET ALL THIS CRAP. I HATE IT WHEN YOUR SCHOOL GENERLIZES ME LIKE THAT OKAY. I DIDN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING TO THEM, WHAT DO THEY HAVE AGAINST ME. I'M NOT THAT SORT OF FREAKING BITCH DESPERATE GIRL OKAY. I'M NOT. YOU ALL WHO SAID THAT, YOU ALL CAN GO AND DIE. I HATE YOU ALL! GO AWAY, YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW ME, STOP SAYING ALL THOSE. I WENT CAUSE I CARED AS A FRIEND OKAY. NOTHING MORE. SO JUST STOP IT AND GO AWAY, CAUSE YOU ALL DON'T KNO WHOW MUCH IT HURTS TO HEAR THOSE THINGS.

i think it's enough, really enough. think of the words you say, think if they'll hurt the person a not. unless you are someone with no feelings, then go ahead and say all you want. and when one day someone does the same back to you, you won't feel a thing, cause you're feelingless. but if you have feelings, you'll feel hurt, and no one likes to be hurt okay. freak.

CAN YOU ALL JUST GIVE ME A REST. I'M TRYING SO FREAKING HARD, AND I'VE HAD JUST ABOUT ENOUGH. STEP ON ME SOMEMORE, I'LL BREAK OKAY. MAYBE THAT'S WHAT YOU WANNA SEE, BUT YOU ARE HEARTLESS! GO AWAY! YOU DON'T KNOW ME, STOP ACTING LIKE YOU DO.

had heritage trail (: and that was a meaningful day i guess (: cause i've learnt that i've grown closer to those in guides. much much closer.

i wanna say thank you to sandy png, tan yenjin and iris siow (:
that day i know i wasn't in the best of moods. and you guys knew it too. and you cheered me up, and told me you were there for me. i appreciate you all wanting to be part of my life, for wanting to know what's happening, to want to help me through it. i thank you. and iris and yenjin, thank you for your tags, they really cheered me up (: sandy, thank you for the para (: it made me tear. i love you guys, and i'm here for you when you need me too (:
GUIDES FOREVER <3

today was alright i guess (: stupid joshua press my head until damn pain lah ): STUPID JOSHUA CHUA. went for service with joan and ben (: and they made me laugh alot (: thanks alot guys.

and after so long, i wish i could take the courage to do what's right, the courage i lack

my 100th post, but yet, i don't feel a thing ):

i like this songs' lyrics. i cried when i heard it. it's meaningful. i'm going to hold on, love with all my might and maybe the torns in my life will never last. maybe

our love will always last by edward chun

As we walk this land
Side by side, hand in hand
I know that some clouds may pass
But if we hold on tight
And love with all our might
Then the thorns in our life will never last

And the roads may sometimes be unpaved
You may think that our love cannot be saved
Though the world out there
May be cold to all we share I have you, to take me through the night
And if we hold on tight
And stay true to all that’s right
Then baby, our love will always last

See the sunrise in the sky
Kiss the sunset as we lie
At night, I’ll never leave your side
But I know someday I’ll be gone, and you’ll be gray
Oh, darling, wish that I could heal your pain

Though the world out there
May be cold to all we share I have you, to take me through the night
And if we hold on tight
And stay true to all that’s right
Then baby, our love will always last

And if we hold on tight, stay true to all that’s right
Then baby, our love will always last

i'll hold on tight, and stay true to all that's right, and hope my love for others will always last. i'm trying.

i love you cher and bianca, hold on, i love you.

I PROMISED I WON'T SWEAR, AND SO I WON'T

but i seriously feel like swearing -.- stupid wai sheng, made me promise -.-

today was a BAD DAY. oh well. shan't elaborate. sigh.

wai sheng taught me these words (: wheeee!


1 WORD : AISHiTERU!
: JE'TAIME
2 WORD : SARANG-HAEYO!
3 WORD : WO AI NI!
: I LOVE YOU!

i think maybe if you stop comparing you'd find our class much more enjoyable to teach. don't you as a mature adult see that expecting too much would only result you in hating us even more? i know our class is not somewhat of a ideal class for you teachers, but sometimes i wish you'd ask yourself why we treat you this way and not other teachers.

we don't treat kuan like that, we don't treat wong like that, we don't treat teng like that. so ask yourself why. i mean, yes we have attitude problems, not like your other classes who are so guai, but do you ever ask yourself why we only treat you like that? why we don't open up or share our opinions is cause obviously we need time to open up to you in the beginning of the year right. and before we could even do that, you already started condemming us for not opening up. and when we gave our opinion, if it's not the same opinion as yours, you would always say our opinion is wrong and make it seem like as if our opinion is so stupid. it's not that we don't wanna open up, but when we do, what do we get. ask yourself that. i remember the beginning of the year, i tried to open up okay. i was the first one to answer your bloody question when no one would, but you didn't accept my answer okay. i still remember. and i was freaking pissed. and from then on, i never once answered your questions anymore. ask yourself why, maybe you'd find the answers.

when you compare us with other classes, why do you seem to just see the point where education is concerned. why can't you see how much fun we can have with you if you just relax abit. it's not all about being attentive you know, it's not all about learning, it's about fun in studying. yes, not everything can be fun, but still? i mean, at least you can try right. coming in and nagging at all most of the time is something we obviously hate. so stop doing it.

i know you try hard, i mean, i know you sometimes have the times when you get tired of us too. but today you used real harsh words okay. like what, you don't wish to come into our class? oh wow. thanks for being so direct. i mean, do you think it really helps to tell us off? we HAVE attitude problem, the whole school knows that, so don't you see, it takes sincerity to move us. not some bloody scolding. like kuan, she doesn't judge us okay. she even ofered to buy us sweets when we were falling asleep in class. see, that's why we all love her so much. and you don't see us talking in her class, is cause she earned our respect. she touched our hearts.

maybe i'm being unreasonable. but i don't feel what you said was appropriate. and you just made things worse.

i admit our class has attitude problem. we roll our eyes and we reply back. but so? can't you find our good points instead? we appreciate teachers who really care, do you?

the last post made irwin lau shan jie so excited lah -.-

but i have some things to add on (:
HE TAUGHT ME..

that i cannot scold people!
how to entertain (:
HOW TO BE VERY IRRITATING (:
love (:
forgive (:
forget (:
and giving me the inspiration to want to kill the person who invented cigrattes (:

okay, to prove i learnt how to be irritatin from him, (x look at the conver below !



leong wai sheng (:
ahahahahs!

leong wai sheng (:
ok. lols.

leong wai sheng (:
ok.

leong wai sheng (:
time to eat

leong wai sheng (:
before i get gastric

leong wai sheng (:
arghh.

LAU XIAO YI (x ):
GO!

leong wai sheng (:
lol

leong wai sheng (:
ok ok

leong wai sheng (:
lols. starving since. 4pm

leong wai sheng (:
>.<> LAU XIAO YI (x ):
ahaha

LAU XIAO YI (x ):
FASTER GO LAH YOU (:

leong wai sheng (:
and if i don't..

leong wai sheng (:
wadcha' gonna do!

leong wai sheng (:
xPP

LAU XIAO YI (x ):
I'M GONNA KILL YOU OKAY!

LAU XIAO YI (x ):
GO!

leong wai sheng (:
kill lor

leong wai sheng (:
if u can bare to

leong wai sheng (:
(x

LAU XIAO YI (x ):
eeyerrr

LAU XIAO YI (x ):
GO LAH

LAU XIAO YI (x ):
LATER YOU DIE OF GASTRIC,
I WILL CRY UNTIL I DIE ONE LEH

leong wai sheng (:
ooo

leong wai sheng (:
ok ok

leong wai sheng (:
lols.

LAU XIAO YI (x ):
(:

leong wai sheng (:
xD

LAU XIAO YI (x ):
finish already?!

leong wai sheng (:
no

leong wai sheng (:
lol

leong wai sheng (:
..

LAU XIAO YI (x ):
EAT FIRST TALK LATER
SO RUDE TO TALK WITH FOOD IN YOUR MOUTH!
AND IF YOU CHOKE, THEN ..
THEN YOU DIE!

leong wai sheng (:
orh

LAU XIAO YI (x ):
so stop talking and go and eat!

leong wai sheng (:
u knw..
i think i reali thought xiao yi smthn bad..
n dats hw to be irritating!
lol.

LAU XIAO YI (x ):
ahahaha

LAU XIAO YI (x ):
(x

LAU XIAO YI (x ):
thankyouah waisheng (:

LAU XIAO YI (x ):
teach me useful stuff!

leong wai sheng (:
ahhahs u're welcome (:

LAU XIAO YI (x ):
welcome*

leong wai sheng (:
ahahhas


leong wai sheng (:
irritating xiao yi. (:


LAU XIAO YI (x <3>

END OF CONVER (:

yay (: i love my wai sheng (:

and i have something to share, that cheryl told me (: which i think makes a lot of sense, the more shit we go through, the stronger we get, totally agree with it (:

and i shall reply my tags okay (:

irwin; that's why i say wai sheng knows me best (: as i told you ytd right, i have my reasons for not telling, but doesn't mean xiao yi don't love you (: thank you wai sheng, for always being there. bottom part of the post is for you (: continue reading! <3

beehiang; GOH BEE HIANG FINALLY ADMITS SHE LOVES ME (: i love you too

yenjin; see yenjin, i told you you could do it (: i knew you could (: aha. and of course i survived the run (: i'm strong you know!


now i shall dedicate this post to my dear wai sheng (:

i wanna say thank you for everything, since the time i first knew you. maybe it's thanks to jared, that we knew each other. maybe (: but whatever it is, i don't regret having such a friend like you (: i thank you for your sms-es, some of those forwarded ones, make me really laugh, like the one about the computer, it made me smile, when i was going to cry. thank you (: and the one of the nightmare, it made me tear. (: many small things you do have touched me in so many ways. and youv'e taught me alot alot of things. ALOT. on how i have no right to scold people, you were right (: and i've learnt. there are many things which i tell you that i don't tell others. maybe they don't seem so big, but just know that you're special okay (: and for those times you're down, xiao yi is always here (:

and you'll remember me as the xiao yi who always pang sehs you but still loves you (:

THANK YOU WAI SHENG (: I LOVE YOU TO BITS AND PIECES (:

i live for this world, but i also live for myself. i live to love this world. but i live to make myself happy. and that's what i live for (:

and today when you guys all sang happy birthday to xinyi and lydia, i felt so reluctant. felt so reluctant to let this class go. when we sang national day songs together, 7 of us, i just didn't want to let that moment go.

and i guess we've all grown to know each other more and more in these two years. we've all seen the good points in others. yes first year wasn't that pleasent, but who can deny that sec two is better. we've all found the group we belong to, and we've all learnt to accept each other. yes of course there will still be conflicts, but that's what makes up a class isn't it (:

i will miss twoten, for we are different. we're not typical guai kias like the other classes. we're special. we're rebelious is a way, but yet, we are perfectly truthful people. we don't hide our feelings or emotions much and we show them to everyone to see (:

i'll miss twoten 06'. i swear i will.

and BIANCA LOH! i know you'll make it for council! i believe you will (: and so will yenjin (: i believe in both of you! <3

a nice children's chritian song i came across (: it's been so long since i sang it, and i feel so moved by it

Whenever I feel down
When everything seems lost
Such times I feel life just can’t go on anymore
And I remind myself of him
He who can take away my past
Jesus thanks for the faith I now have in you lord

Now I sing about your grace
I sing about your love
I sing about the wonderful things you have done
I sing about my life
The life that you paid the price for
Sing about the faith I have in you now lord

You have been faithful in all of your ways
Though we may not understand why
We go through life this way
But we know what it’s like
To be by your side
Teach us lord,
To be like you
To be so faithful and true.

I know that on my own I cannot stand
When I worship you, you fill me with a song
Of the love you have for me
Now and forever more
And I will trust you now lord of all

I thank you for your grace
I thank you for your love
I thank you for the wonderful things you have done
I thank you for my life
The life that you paid a price for
Thank you for the faith I now have in you lord

You have been faithful in all of your ways
Though we may not understand why
We go through life this way
But we know what it’s like
To be by your side
Teach us lord,
To be like you
To be so faithful and true.

i'm sick ):

boo, i'm sure everyone misses me though (: haha. and rouying! bianca told me you put a water bottle on my chair and teng called me a water bottle ): not fair okay. your water bottle is big and fat! I'M NOT THE BIG AND FAT! hur (:

GUIDES MADE ME SICK. officially. haha. after gudies i already felt like crap. and when i went home, oh wow. 38.5 and i had no more voice and i had flu. AND MY NOSE IS RUNNING LIKE A TAP LAH! i bet bianca loh passed her sickness to me! i bet it's her (x haha. love ya babe!

anddddd, i don't know what to say =/ so i shall er, write my thoughts about 7 of us (:

you know, when i think about end of year, i really don't know what to feel. i don't mean to hurt anyone in the process of this post, but its just my thoughts. don't take it too much to heart okay dearies (:

when i think of end of year, somehow, i feel sad and yet, i don't know, i don't feel much. how much has our friendship grown? from last year, when choral night brought us together. how much has our friendship grown from them? to me, it hasn't grown much you know. maybe i'm closer to eugena and cheryl cause i've been with them since the beginning of sec one. but still, how much has our friendship grown? cause to me, it just seems like we dont' really understand each other much. we don't really know what's going on in each other's lives. all we do is laugh and laugh and crap and fool around with each other. but how much do we really know each other?

for one, i don't know much about trish. what's happening in her life. and sometimes trish, you're a great persn, but yet i also don't know how to relate with you. i know sometimes we crap alot, we laugh alot together, but how much do we know each others personality?

and when we all come down to the cracks of it, how much are we going to really miss each other? how much do we really trust each other? i don't know much, but i wish we could go deeper, be stronger as one (:

i love you guys for just who you are. and i want you all to know i treasure you guys and that life wouldn't be the same without 7 of us (:

eugena, cheryl, bianca, charis, cherie, jasmine, tricia (:
-imprinted in my hearts, these 7 names