physics test tomorrow D:
wish me all the best, i think i'm just gna die or something.

thank you bee hiang, for your post (:
i love you loads <3

sometimes, i just don't understand how the minds of people work. it's funny.

i'm feeling very stressed, don't ask me why. i mean, cca, friends, hw, tests, social lives, everything has to be handled. and everything, is of equal improtance. no, i can't chose one over the other, it's just not me. and even if i were to chose, it'd be my friends. i know sometimes it's a stupid choice, but to me, it's just more important. i don't want to fail, don't get me wrong. but it's very hard to balance everything. it's very hard to have control over your emotions, and not letting them affect you when you study. now, i feel so restless whenever i study, like my mind's not in it at all. and in sch, i can't concentrate, nothing goes in. i almost cried in school today, but iris told me not to cry, and so i didn't. but i wonder how long more i can hold on, i wonder how long more i can be strong, not for myself, but for those whom i love.
i don't want to be someone of a burden to them, i don't want to bring them down. i have to be strong for them, to give them the courage to be strong, too. i need to be strong, it's no longer an option, it's no longer a choice, it's an expectation.

i want to take a step back and look at the whole picture, like how i used to, like how i could, but now, being stuck in this situation for so long, makes me hard. but i'll keep on trying. i know i have my God.

rescue

You are the Source of life
I can't be left behind
No one else will do
I will take hold of You

I need you, jesus

I need You, Jesus
to come to my rescue
Where else could I go?
There’s no other name by which I am saved
Capture me with grace
I will follow You

My heart is Yours for life
I need Your hand in mine
No one else will do Lord,
I put my trust in You

I need You Jesus
To come to my rescue
Where else could I go?
There’s no other name by which I am saved
Oh capture me with grace
I will follow You

This world has nothing for me
This world has nothing for me
This world has nothing for me (I will follow You)
This world has nothing for me

I need You Jesus
To come to my rescue
Where else could I go?
There’s no other name by which I am saved
Capture me with grace
I will follow You

Oh I need You Jesus
To come to my rescue
Where else could I go?
There’s no other name by which I am saved
Capture me with grace

Won't You Capture me with grace
I will follow You
I will follow You
This world has nothing for me
This world has nothing for me

(:

Lord, i'll look to you for my strength, the strength i need, to get through this. cause only You can provide me with the strength that is sufficent for me. i'll look to You, cause i believe in You. You're all i need, You're really all i need now. come Lord, come and fill me. cause i'm beginning, to feel the desperation for You, once again. come Lord.