IH TEST
MATH QUIZ
PHYSICS QUIZ
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

beehiang wo ai ni [:

caroline, don't do it anymore [:
cause you can talk to me [: i'm always here.

throw away all the penknives, i've thrown away mine.
now it's time for everyone to stop cutting [:

306 is an emotional class, yeap. but i know we'll all support each other through [:

you said, i love my life for others and not for myself. i guess, it's true. it has always been that way, always about how others feel. others come first.

i appreciate everything everyone has done. but i guess now, i just need some time alone. if i ever cry in class again, just me be [: i'll calm down, pretty fast [:

thank you aidan for calling me last night, really appreciate it.

i don't know what to do about us.

我要记得忘记。
jenzi, your lyrics [: see lah, you influence me to like all the chinese songs can. haha.

i'm sorry boyf, i don't know what the hell i'm doing. i know i'm hurting you, but i guess it's better that i hurt you now, then let you see me like this, for who knows how long before i recover. sorry, i love you still, alot. i hope you know that. i don't mean to push you away, what's my problem. i really want you with me, but i don't want you to get upset just cause of me. i really still love you beehiang. i'm sorry. 你会明白吗？

i guess why i didn't go to school today, was cause i really didn't want anyone to see me cry, again.
it's stupid, and it hurts people, like what caroline said. and i don't want to be an idiot, who cries, and not even know why she's crying. it's true, i'm afraid that you guys will get sick of me. irritated, and just so fed up. maybe that's why i push you guys away, cause i'd rather go through it myself, then have you guys go through it with me, and hate me in the end. i just feel that way, don't tell me what i'm feeling is wrong. 虽然我是要你们在我身边但是我不想让你们和我一起的难过。你们了解吗？

i feel weird, lol, terribly.
oh well [: byebye.

edit/ 1:26pm
yes don't worry, i'll get better, so i never have to see you again [: not that i don't like you, and i'm sorry if i ever gave you that impression. but seeing you makes me feel helpless, like as if i can't help myself. sorry if i ever was rude, sorry if i appeared to really hate you. cause i don't. thank you anyway [: but i don't ever want to see you again.

i'll get better by my own. i'll do it, cause i know i can. cause i know i can save myself. cause i know i've got beehiang and i know i've got joan. i know i'm not alone, i know i can be saved. i can do it, i know i can. i just have to. cause i have to prove you wrong, i have to prove all of you who doubt me wrong. [:

i feel so much better. at least i can do away with him and the med. i don't feel so reliant anymore. i know it'll be difficult without the med, but i can do it [: i know i can.

thank iris rachel and beehiang for your sms, it made me feel, well, missed <3>

i was teaching this song when i started to cry,
kid's prayer
i want to know you Lord
you are a great big God
i'm young and do not know alot
come and be my all

i want to love you more
giving you my life and all
you died for me
you've sacrificed
i won't forget you Lord.

i love you Jesus
i'll grow up knowing you
i love you Jesus
i'll grow up serving you

i love you Jesus
my life is saved by you
i'll never forget
never forget
i'll grow up loving you
[:

i'll never forget You, i know that i've got You.
okay [: i'm smiling [: yes okay i shall go for tuition. i shan't be alone anymore [:

thank you joan. for reassuring me last night. for your acceptance. i know i didn't tell you much, but you still understood. sometimes i wonder why we're so alike, and why we always seem to go through the same thing at the same time. maybe it's all God's plan [: but thank you joan, for always seeing me through my storms. thank you for always letting me see you through your storm too. together forever, yes to our promise i'll stay true [:

lastly. thank you beehiang. for everything. cause you've never given up on me. you didn't understand, but you accepted. thank you for telling me you weren't blind, when no one seemed to care. thank you. thank you for telling me that you would be right there waiting for me to turn around. thank you beehiang. i don't know if i would have made it so far without you. thank you for your continous support and love. thank you for your friendship. thank you for always telling me, that things would turn out fine. you have no idea how much i appreciate you. thank you beehiang. thank you <3 i love you, the most [:

this is a stupid day.
although you don't say it, i know all of you are sick of me. although you don't say it, i know all of you are sick of my being this way. althought you don't say it, i know your patience with me is running out. but you're my family, if it were friends, fine, i have nothing to say. but it's family. it's not like i want to be this way you know. it's not like i want to stay this way. i hate it too, i hate myself now. i want to stop all this crap. you said i'm hypocraitical? being so nice to my friends and being not nice to you guys? i'm not okay. it' s just different, the way i express my love for you guys and the way i express love for friends. i ask friends, how are you. cause i don't know what's going on. but i don't ask you guys, how are you, because i DO know what's going on. i don't tell you guys how much you matter to me, cause it's just not me to tell that to family. i show it by helping matthew cut his food, or telling ian not to eat oily stuff, or going with mum to eat lunch, or just simple things. i'm not a word person at home, i'm different, in school and at home. i'm different. i'm not being hypocraitical. i'm not. and in church, after you guys screamed so much in the car, i just started to tear. while writing on the board, teaching the kids i started to tear. and it was embarassing. but i couldn't help it. i wiped it away, laughed. and told the kids, never ever to learn from my example. i guess they didn't believe me when i said i was okay, cause they kept saying they loved me. but i don't know, sometimes that's why, i'm so afraid of kids. cause they just see right through me.
i hate crying. i really hate it. but today i felt the same helplessness as the day during lunch. where it's just uncontrollable. maybe i really am all the he said i was. perhaps. maybe this is just something i have to go through. i don't know, and i really really don't know. i don't know what to do anymore. just now, i just sat in my room, and i started to cry. and i kept saying, zen me ban. charis, zen me ban. i really don' t know what to do anymore. i don't know where to go and i don't know what i should do to help myself. i feel so alone, yet i want to be alone. i feel so stretched, that it's just at any point i'm going to break. why am i feeling this way? i don't even know myself. oh gawd, how. what's wrong with me. i don't want to be what he said i was, but what if i really am. i can see what will happen if i am, so many people will leave, again. so many people will leave me alone, afraid, or not knowing how to relate to me anymore. how. i don't know how to accept myself, what more understand myself.
i don't want to be like this. i know there are so many who are upset too. i don't want to go on and on about myself. i don't want to. but now truthfully, i'm too caught up trying to save myself, that i frankly have no time to save others. tell me how. i feel guilty, i feel ashamed, for being this way. and i just want to say sorry to those i've let down, and i want you to know, that this isn't what i wanted. i'm sorry for not being able to be there, i'm sorry for being so useless. i'm sorry for not being able to help. i'm just sorry.
i hate this. charis, please find yourself back, soon.

doc, stop saying i am, when i'm not.
i know it myself okay. I'M NOT.
and having you tell me, it makes me feel fraustrated.
even if i am, i don't need you. all i need are the people around me, who love me.
so go away, and never come back.

i'm not. ]:
beehianggg ]: zen me ban. i'm not you know. i'm not.

BEEHIANGGGG [:
everything's okayyyyy~
yes come to mee, roar.
charis loves you [:

today was great [[[:
you know today, when we were singing songs, i guess i was reminded of twoten. reminded of the good times we had, and the fun times we had. sometimes, yeah i miss it. oh well [:
melwee iris me and peilih can go form a band [: ahaha. and melwee can play the drums ehh! we got our zhao pai move pls :D ahahah.

CONGRATS YENJIN, BIANCA AND LIANGHUI [:
yay, congrats [:

sec twos :D
pageant tomorrow! jia you okay <3 trained so hard, tomorrow give off your best!
DO YOUR FCS PROUD [:

dodo. i feel gayway. ahaha.
I'M THINKING OF GOHBEEHIANG AGAIN. oh no! ahahha.

edit/
sec twos, bad news D: huiyan is sick rah. and how, i'm replacing her =/ good luck to all of you. ahaha. shit lahh, how ]: i'm so unsure

and i hate things to be this way too, but i don't know what to do

thank you all those who were there today [:
i don't want to be this way, i really don't. i hope you guys understand.

thank you jenzi for listening to me, for your choc [:
thank you beehiang for accompanying me [:
thank you rachel for offering to sit under the table with me [:
thank you caroline for telling me to stop crying cause it makes everyone sad.
thank you alina for your smile, your pat, your hug.
thank you hilary for being there.
thank you iris for always giving the warm smile.
thank you nicole, i don't exactly remember why, but thank you.
thank you melwee, for just listening to my 'how'.
thank you ashleen, for er trying to make me laugh although you don't know me.

thank you for your patience. thank you, i don't need professional help, i just need my friends. cause they are enough to get me through.
and i promise i'd try never ever to cry like how i did again.
promise.

i love 306 [:
i love beehiang.
and i love yushi
don't ask me why i love yushi, but i know she wants me to smile [:

i feel very loved, and thus, i have to get better [:

OH AND NYBT GO KICK ASS [:
JIA YOU! [[[:

thank you irwin, for that call.
but i still don't feel any better.

i don't know what's wrong with me, at all.
the problem lies with me, not you.
i feel like just dissapearing from this earth.

yay one chapter of math down, 2 more to go (:
yay, jia you charis!
ahha, add oil rachel!~

ahhaha i think rachel very cute leh (x
ahhaah wormies for rachel (:
i go find later! i promiseee (x

rahhaha, BEEHIANGGG. I'M NEVER GNA DUMP YOU OKAY <3

i don't know why i got so affected by that little thing you said last night.
when truth is, i know it shouldn't even bother me at all.
what's wrong with me. i don't even know.
rah i'm confused. i cried last night, actually cause of you. i know it in my heart.
how charis. how.

yo to the fellow people on earth (:

i don't know what to blog about.
oh, i want to go for visitation with cell ):
rahhh but mummy don't let me HOW.
and this 'how' thing. i learnt it from melwee.
and it's a very irritating habit. lol. i want to kick it away, but i can't. HOW.
ahh shit. see.

i counted beehiangs in hope that that would put me to sleep last night. lol. but it didn't.
beehiang and her great idea of counting beehiangs.
lol, i didn't sleep till 2+ rahhhh.

my phone's being irritating. the battery is like ALWAYS dying on me now a days.
rah and then i sms halfway and then it dies. sucks lahhhhhh.

i want to go back to sch. suddenly, i hate cny =/
ahhaha, i don't know why.
i just want to go back to school.
i miss you beehiang (:

okay this is kind of a lame stupid post. but oh well. i'm bored and no one's online at the time of the day, so yeah.
happy cny to all those who enjoy it (:

/edit
sorry melwee for stealing all that you wanted to post. rah i didn't know ><
oh well. rah i realised i can't watch all the shows that you asked me to watch cause all my speakers are spoilt. rah. sad lehh. thank you melwee (: thank you for your smses. <3

i'm listening to come to me :D
Under the silver stars
Right where he broke your heart
Girl you know I'll give you anything

I wanna hold your hand
And say the words he never said
I'll make you promises you can believe

Let me be the one
Telling you it's alright
Sharing the smiles and tears you cry
Let me be the one
Lovin' you when you're weak
For all the strength you need
You can come to me

When you're down and you feel so lonely
Turn around
You can come to me
When you're down baby
I will be the only
Come to me

You can just be yourself'
Cause I don't want nobody else
All of your secrets are safe with me

[For the kind]
For the kind of love you can trust
For more than just a crush
Baby why don't you just
Come to me

Let me be the one
Telling you it's alright
Sharing the smiles and tears you cry
Let me be the one
Lovin' you when you're weak
For all of the strength you need
You can come to me

When I've got you in my arms [got you in my arms]
Say it's where you wanna be [where you wanna be]
'Cause girl I'm down on my knees
Promising my heart
Oh my heart

Let me be the one
Telling you it's alright
Sharing the smiles and tears you cry
Let me be the one [let me be the one]
Lovin' you when you're weak
For all of the strength you need
You can come to me

Let me be the one
Telling you it's alright
Sharing the smiles and tears you cry
Let me be the one
Lovin' you when you're weak
For all of the strength you need
You can come to me

Whenever you need me [I'm always here]
Whenever you need me girl
Whenever you need me [I'm right here]
Ohh, I'll be there
Whenever you need me [Just reach out]
Whenever you need me girl
Whenever you need me I'll be there

(: heh heh (:
yeah, i think i feel the same way you do too =/ HOW.

(((:

chinese new year :D
it's nice to see everyone sit at the table and eat together (:
it's rare :D

there's something wrong with my emotions. AHHAHA, BEEHIANG HOW.
lol, i tell everybody something! shh, i believe in beehiang :D

ahahhaha. shucks lah. okay i go do maths :D
cause beehiang asked me to. so guai.

edit/ 5:20
thank you beehiang (:
thank you for listening. thank you for asking till i opened up. thank you cause i really needed someone to talk to me. though it was a short talk, lol still thank you :D i really appreciate it. we'll enjoy the roller coaster ride of life together (:

gaywayway.
i love beehiang (:
i love melwee (:
rah you two are love <3

beehiang, i love you i love you i love you boyfriend :D
and nothing will ever change that :D i'm here for you, like how you're always there for me too <3
ahhahah, beehiang! I MISS YOU ALOT. i want to talk to you. rahbish. ahahha. rahbishh! ahahha. rah i really love you so muchhhhhh! thanks dear! for talking to me today just cause i said i want to talk to you <3

melwee, never bathe same time as me ): you gay way! go bathe, so dirty! LOL. rah. so dirtyyyyy. ahhaha. shit lahh. i'm so clean now :D

i think beehiang and melwee, have made my life such a bright life (:
see, no more emo post (:

watched coach cartner movie (:
and i think this is so true, what is your deepest fear?
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

i went to church ytd, and i cried, when i thought of both of you.
i guess i'm just really afraid that i'll someday be away from both of you, i don't know.

thank you for holding my hand joan,
thank you for always knowing i need you.

it's true, what was said last night, i need to have faith
-believing when i don't see it
-obeying when i don't understand it
-giving when i don't have it
-persisting when i don't feel like it
-thanking God before i receive it
-trusting if i don't get it

the msg ytd was something i really needed alot. to help me through. and i thank God that He gave me that message. i don't know, but i felt you. i felt like as if, you were talking to me. and thank you, cause i really needed that.

when i don't have anything, i'll still give. cause i know when i have faith, it'll come back soon enough. just give, cause i know You gave so much. give the love, give the faith, give everything. cause in faith, i know you'll provide. no matter how tired, i'll give. cause you've given me so much. and yes, i'll give, i'll give with a cheerful heart.

the song that really spoke to me, last night (:

salvation is here
God above all the world in motion
God above all my hopes and fears
And I don't care what the world throws at me now
I'm gonna be alright!

Hear the sounds of the generations
Making loud our freedom song
All in all that the world would know Your name
It's gonna be alright!

Cause I know my God saved the day
And I know His word never fails
And I know my God made a way for me
Salvation is here!

Salvation is here
Salvation is here and He lives in me
Salvation is here
Salvation that died just to set me free
Salvation is here
Salvation is here and He lives in me
Salvation is here
Cause You are alive and You live in me!
Salvation is here
Salvation is here and He lives in me
Salvation is here
Cause You are alive and You live in me!

Cause I know my God saved the day
And I know His word never fails
And I know my God made a way for me
Salvation is here!

(:
i know everything's gna be alright.

GOHBEEHIANG
MELISSAWEE
KUMYUSHI
JENZICHUA
RACHEL KOH
CHENXIN
ALINA
everyone who asked if i'm okay,
you guys are love <333

melwee you gayway, TAKE IT LIKE A MAN. ahhahahah. lame shit lah D:
ahhaha, you hit me damn pain ): ahahha. but i know da shi ai :D ahaha. i know you love me :D
yay. take it like a man :D

i think i'm very blessed, to be in 306 (:
i finally feel like a part of something, a part of a class.
i finally feel like at least people in the class care (:
whee, i feel happy (:

i know alot of people's been feeling sad lately, so have i. but you know what! we'll all pull through (: together, WE WILL (: and like melwee said, take it like a man! we'll all take it like a man :D

i think first thing first.
thank you beehiang.

today would just have been really all tears if not for you <3
thank you for coming in during recess when you saw me crying. i think i really needed someone to notice, i needed some care. i needed someone to tell me not to cry. thank you darling, thank you yushi too (:
when i was panicking, looking for her, thank you for offering to look for her with me. i think i needed that. i think i needed someone with me. i think i was really just losing my mind, i didn't know what to do. thank you darling, you've helped me so much. and thank you for accompanying me all the time in the toilet, i didn't feel so helpless with you there with me.
and when i felt so lousy after you left, and everything just came again, and some not nice things were said, all i had to do was to sms you, and you helped me so much. you encouraged me, you reassured me. thank you dear.
you know me so well, you love me just so well. cause you're beehiang, you're the best. and you'll always be <3

mr tan; sorry. sometimes i feel like that's the only thing i can say. but yet i think i have to let you know that 306 feels sorry too. and we really miss the laughy you. we miss you that believes in us. we miss the you that is patient, in teaching us. we miss you, and we're really sorry. i'm really sorry. i'll try harder, i promise.

thank you evelyn for your note (:
thank you melwee for your alphabet and star and sweets (:
thank you hilary for your chocolates and note (:
thank you yuxin for your chocs and note (:
thank you yenjin for your note, care and concern today (:
thank you jenzi for your smile (:
thank you hilary for your 'are you okay' (:

today's the worst day of my whole life.
cause somehow i just can't seem to get some things straight, and things just keep building up. but you know something (: i know tomorrow will be a better day. so darling, please hold on to the same hope as i do, that tomorrow will be a better day. that's the hope i cling on to. yes, so will you believe in that too?

see iris (: it wasn't so bad <3

evelyn's note really made me feel like crying. sorry evelyn, but i really have to quote you, to make my point.
"..then i realised i was affecting alot of people. so now, when i am with my friends, i want to make them happy so that i can be happy with them too! :D i guess you're kinda like that too right? when i think of it, i think of your smile (: but some to think of it, this is also what makes a difference. both friends and close friends see your smiles, but a close friend sees your tears too (: so instead of always concerning about whether i am okay, we can also talk about your sad things okay (: jia you!"
i was really so touched. she realised i don't talk about myself anymore. she realised. and she cared <3 thank you evelyn, you make me feel loved (:

although it's the worst day of my life, i think it can be the best day of my life too. cause i know there are people there for me

beehiang, i love you (: you're the top on my list, always, i promise

god will make a way,
when there seems to be no way.
he works in ways,
i cannot see, he will make a way for me.

he will be my guide,
hold me closely to his side,
with love and strength for each new day,
he will make a way, he will make a way

Lord, i trust in you, please don't use silence to answer me anymore.

i'm so touched :D

HAPPY VALENTINE'S EVERYONE :D

thank you BEEHIANG (: for your nice nice present (:
thank you xiao en for your note and heart (:
thank you chinwen for your nice note and heart (:
thank you alina for your nice sweets and note (:
thank you iris for your nice note and chocs (:
thank you peilih for your nice heart (:
thank you samtan for your nice chocs (:
thank you amanda for your chocs (:
thank you meiting and olivia for your heart (:
thank you meiling for your chocs (:
thank you trish for your sweets (:
thank you xinyun for your sweet (:
thank you chengyi for your sweet (:
thank you joan for your sms (:
thank you jeron for your sms (:
thank you zihui for your sms (:
thank you joshua for your sms (:

yes thank you (:
if i missed anyone out =/ sorry.

i love you boyfriend :D
ahhaha. i love beehiang (: when i opened her present i almost cried. lol, i was too touched. OH MAN. i'm gna do something for you (x ahahah. LALALA. i love you alot pls :D
and yes, HAPPY VALENTINE'S TO YOU (: without you, my valentine's won't be as happy as it is. and thank you for your present. i really like it alot. i appreciate you so much (: we'll stay together forever :D yay <3333

i thought i saw you today, but to my dissapointment, it wasn't. oh well. (:

goh beehiang(:
i love you lahhh! (:
you're so sweet please :D
ehh, don't be sad anymore okay! (:
charis leong will help you draw yushi and paste it on your table so you can see her everyday (:
and yushi, charis leong will help you draw bee hiang. then you can see her everyday too!
love you both :D

i'm always here,
whenever you guys need me.
anyone, anytime.
just don't do things that'll make me cry ):
don't do anything stupid.
cause i really love you guys, alot.

i never really understood the real reason.
was i really just too close for comfort?

I never meant the things I said
To make you cry
Can I say I'm sorry
It's hard to forget
And yes I regret
All these mistakes
I don't know why you're leaving Me
But I know you must have your reasons
There's tears in your eyes
I watch as you cry
But it's getting late
Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
When I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
Guess I'll never know
Remember when we scratched our names into the sand
And told me you loved me
But now that I find
That you've changed your mind
I'm lost the words
And everything I feel for you
I wrote down on one piece of paper
The one in your hand
You won't understand
How much it hurts to let you go
Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
Guess I'll never know
All this time you've been telling me lies
Hidden in bags that are under your eyes
And when I asked you I knew I was right
But if you turn your back on me now When I need you most
But you just let me down, down, down
Would you think about what you're about to do to me
And back down.
Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discoverI got too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in(Yeh yeh yeh)
What was I just about to discover
When I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
I guess I'll never know.

yeah i guess i'll never know. wanted to ask you, but never had the courage. oh well. maybe it's just to comfort myself, that maybe i should never know.

anyway! thanks for all your care and concern to all the people in school :D
thanks iris for lending me your jacket (:
thanks hilary for your arm (:
thanks melwee for asking if i'm alright (:
thanks alina for offering the sick bay (:
thanks georgina for, er asking if i was alright (:
thanks meiling for asking if i was alright (:
thanks to alot alot of people lah (:

it made me feel alot better to know that when i was quiet, people noticed.
it made me feel alot better to know that when i was sick, people cared (:
thank you people :D

muhaha :D
i'm gna bandage sandy's leg on monday :D

sandy and i came up with a poem! on desserts!
(:
desserts are nice, so are we!
desserts help people destress, and so do we!
stressed on how to destress, take C & S!
desserts make you happy, and so do we!

thank you joshua and eugene for making me so happy today :D
ahhahah, i love you two :D

rahhahah, i'm super bored, and math is officially killing me :D
for all you know, i may die before wednesday. :0
but then i can't die before wednesday, lol alot of people will be sad ):

ahahha, i miss bee hiang!
oh man, random =/
ahhahah, don't know lah, but i miss her :D

and i miss joan too. it's like 2 weeks already ):
sadness.

ahhahhaa, and i miss everyone :D and MELWEE too!

ahhahahahhaha, i'm going nuts ): and it's all joshua's and eugene's fault! ):

MELWEE! why you come online so late :O i wait for you until 11 then i cannot tahan already. lol. went to sleep D: rahh you lah!

the sun's up, and it's a new day. (:
things get better with new days, so smile (:

ahhahah, why does everyone say i'm always high when i'm not D:
ahhahah, oh well! it ain't a bad thing either (:

everyone needs protection, but everyone needs to get hurt and learn from it and grow too. that's a thought for you to ponder on dear. overly protecting? maybe it's time to let her learn from her mistakes, then she can learn how to stand on her own 2 feet (: jia you <3

people change,
but friendship shouldn't change.
we should accept them, no matter how much they've changed (:

it felt weird to have tears in my eyes today. lol. so long since that's happened. but yeah (: it's okay! i'll still be happy :D and so do you okay! ((: ahhaha, SMILE (:

friday night, is love.

hilaryyyy get well soon :D I MISS YOU (:

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9:45
and i'm feeling like crap now. i feel like crying, yet i can't. i feel like screaming yet i can't. i feel like just breaking down, but i can't. i feel like ranting, but what's there to rant about. but this song played, when i on-ed my ipod. and i believe there is a reason why it was THIS song.

till i see you
The greatest love that anyone could ever know
That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

With all I am I'll live to see Your kingdom come
And in my heart I pray You'd let Your will be done
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

I will live to love You
I will live to bring You praise
I will live a child in awe of You
You are a voice that called the universe to be
You are the whisper in my heart that speaks to me
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in you

You alone are God of all
You alone are worthy Lord
And with all I am my soul will bless Your name

and yes, till i see you face to face, and amazing grace finally takes me home, Lord, i will trust in you. no matter how difficult. cause you've seen me through this long and narrow and winding road.

thank you yenjin.
thank you bee hiang.
thank you iris.
thank you huida.
for showing me your care and concern.
esp yenjin and bee hiang.

i don't know where i'd be without you, bee hiang. you're so important to me now.

bee hiang!
I LOVE YOU OKAY (:
please be happy (:
yep, i told jenzi this, life definately has rough times, but in the end, we will win (:
cheer up love! and know that your girlfriend is always here <3

and melweeee (:
smiling is a choice (x

bee hiang!
I LOVE YOU OKAY (:
please be happy (:
yep, i told jenzi this, life definately has rough times, but in the end, we will win (:
cheer up love! and know that your girlfriend is always here <3

and melweeee (:
smiling is a choice (x

i love melwee :D
ahhahah, rah you stupid woman. never study with me ))):
ahhahahahahaha, and nope (x i don't get angry (:
well, at least i won't be angry with you lah :DDDD

i love jenzi and i love bee hiang.
oh man, gay random post. shit.

MR TAN MAKE ME SIT INFRONT TODAY D:
mr tan, you're evil. ahhaha, but i still talked to rachel :D
so it ain't that bad :DDD NEH NEH NEH.

lol, okay this is a spas post.
no more chem test, no more physics test, no more bio test, all of which, i totally screwed up. LOL.

who cares anywayyyy!
i love melwee (:
ahhahaha. crazy me D:

ben asked me if i had a valentines date. lol, and i said yes. MY MATH TEST SHALL BE MY VALENTINE'S DATE :D

yohoho!
thank you alina
thank you bee hiang
thank you sandy
thank you eugene lim
thank you aidan
thank you joan
thank you benlee
thank you xinyun
thank you everyone :D

without you guys, i won't be where i am right now. maybe i'd still be upset, maybe. but it's cause of you guys, that always make my life so happy (:

rahh chem chem chem. formulas, get into my headdd! ><
JIA YOU 306! ((((:

melwee get well soon :D
kelly get well soon :D
sandy! your leg ah! GET WELL SOON! :D

yay to everyone (:
always look on the bright side of life!
as quoted by melwee, be optimistic! (:

your is 90%, mine isn't even 1.
lol, ironical, but yah, oh well (:

i don't really understand why you keep doing the same things that get you into the same trouble time and time again. if you don't want to land up in __ then don't do it again. maybe that's why you say i don't understand, but maybe that's cause i really don't. and i'm sorry i don't understand. it's not that i don't want to understand, but i just really don't. i really hope the 3 things you're counting on will work out for you, but i really hope you do what i said. reflect. true, it won't help you now, but at least, next time if you're faced with the same situation you'll know what to do. you get what i mean, i know you do. i know it's a hard time now, and i know i'm not exactly there. i know you really doubt me saying i'm there, yah, maybe i'm never there for you. maybe that's the reason for everything. perhaps. but i do want you to know, if you really need me, i'm still here. that's if, you even need me. yeah. i'll be praying, and praying till things get better. be strong till then, don't get into anymore trouble till then. cause it'll break my heart.

it breaks my heart to see you this way. cause i still believe in you, with all my heart. and i know, this is not what you're made to be. there is so much more you can be. and i know how great you can be, if you be who you're meant to be. i know you can be so great, you can do so many great things. remember the time you called, i think you're really smart. you catch on so fast, faster than me. if you work hard, i know you can do well in your studies. dealing with those stuff, just show that you can do buisness. and you're good at it. i know it in my heart. i believe in you, so much. and i know you can do, so much things with your life. if only you could see that. if only you could see your own potential. if only you could see my belief in you. if only you could see how much faith i have in you. if only you could see, what i see in you. then you'll think that you're the most impressive person in this world. if only you could see, what i see in you

everything in it's time (:
i can't hurry anyting.

rahh today's an okay day (:
time to mug geog :D

eh wth. thanks iris and sandy for pointing that out. what mug geog lah. wthh. ahhaha. it's mug bio :D ahahah, mug until ah, don't even know what i'm mugging anymore.

i need a little encouragement, a little hug, someone to tell me you're there. cause i'm not that strong too. i need you guys to be there for me, like how i've tried to be there for you. cause now, it's my turn to feel tired. i don't ask for much, but somehow feels like no one really cares about how i feel anymore.

yoyo (:

happy 4 january bee hiang :DDD
I REMEMBER NOW :D
this one month has been marvelous!!
cause of you, cause you brighten my life <3

it's kind of a scary thought to be baptized, but i guess it's something i have to do, to show the world what Jesus can do. bee hiang! come for my baptism pleaseeeee!

bee hiangggg! what's so special about 4th jannnn! TELL ME :D and i want your photo <3

rah i'm so tireddddd.
):

tomorrow i'm gna study with joan (:
yayyye (:

i don't know, i feel inferior in your presence. i used to be able to ask from you, cry in front of you, kneel in front of you, and beg you. praying used to be something i loved, but now? i feel so distant. i don't know. i've been waiting for so long, with no reply. but maybe what pj said today is right. silence, may be a way you're trying to talk to me. maybe. but sometimes i really want to hear you. maybe my intentions are just not right in your eyes. sorry, i really am sorry lord.

yohoho!

sandy cheer up (:
yenjin cheer up (:
bee hiang cheer up (:
iris cheer up (:
evelyn cheer up (:
everbody smile (:
cause being happy, is a choice. you have the right to chose, so chose wisely (:

today's gna be a busy day :O church church! ((: and tomorrow baptism class (((: somehow, i'm excited :D

okay, shan't blog so much, tsk me :D
anywayyy! there's a today's verse section now! which changes everyday. how cool is that :D i found it on rachel's blog :DD

well, be happy and smile everyone (:

if my heart has grown cold,
there your love will unfold,
as you open my eyes to the work of your hands.
when i'm blind to my way,
there your spirit will pray,
as you open my eyes to the work of your hand.
as you open my eyes to the work of your hand.

YOYO everyone (:
i'm really tired D: lol, as in just physically lah (: but i listened to melwee and slept at 11 ytd (: i listen to her okay :D

bee hiang, i missed you (: get well soon boyfriend! <3
melwee, you're still coughing like don't know what ): pls get well soon (: but it was nice to hear your laughter today <3

mr tan is nice (: he stayed in class to teach me math :D i think he almost when crazy, when i didn't know anything. sorry ): but he learnt how to fold straw hearts from me ((: lol, he's cute :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAM RAE (:

bee hiang rocks. lol. she makes me laugh alot (:
and she said this,
"HAHAHAH
shit our arguments forever wheregot and got one -.-
ahahahaha"
ahhahahah. wth. she's damn funny. i love bee hiang :D

i think sometimes, i can't just rely on my own strength to keep loving others. cause i'm not that accepting, i'm not that 'nice'. i need to depend on you Lord. cause there's no other way. but you. and please show me, if i should join __ anot. my mind's really in a whirl. i need your strength (:

bee hiang(:
firstly, happy birthday (:
secondly, thank you, for everything you've done for me. for everything you've tried to do for me. for everything you've been to me, thank you. i'm no longer very good with words, but i know you know how i feel now. and i just am really full of gratitude to have a boyfriend like you :D beehiang, you know, i'll be here for you all the way. through it all, you always have me. if laughing at me makes you feel better, i want you to laugh at me all you want :D alright, dear? (: i love you bee hiang, cause you've been such a sweet friend (: all these while, you were there. and i appreciate you alot.
happy birthday bee hiang, cause i love you <3

joan (: thank you for the song (: it really cheered me up lots <3 get well soon okay (:

melwee (: GET WELL SOON! i miss you i miss you i miss you ): like crazy lah ): and i didn't go high today ): rah, cause you weren't there D: come back tomorrow, pretty please? (:

okay i shall post the song that joan found for me (:


Not In Her Storm

I see the clouds rolling in and oh how it looks like rain
And it is always I fight for the welcome change
When it rains it pours on this heart of mine
So, I take the storms I feel to her each time.

But I know she has lived under her own pouring rain
Yet under her water her heart still doesn't change
She can walk away from what hangs overhead
And, not in her storm, are words left unsaid.

Not in her storm have I ever felt alone
Her storm ends, so I, may find my way home
It's for me that she pushes away her own rain
So, that I may find comfort in calling her name.

She lives in this world for the sake of another's heart
God, how she eases the miles when worlds apart
And she never wanders when your world falls through
Not ever in her storm would she do this to you.

She has wings that I know not only I can see
Cause only an angel could find strength to carry me
It's the way that the eyes can surely view
How her heart's written so clearly in what an angel can do.

Not in her storm is her work ever done
And even in her storm she hands me the sun
When her world is dark - I always have light
And now how I hold the new color of night.

She takes then she gives to an unhappy face
So that many can find an awesome place
I have been able to love her more every day
And with her hand in mine the clouds roll away.

Not in any storm that I will ever live beneath
Could ever change what I hold here inside of me
Not in any of her storms have I lost my angels touch
To that angel out there, I love her so much.

(:
rah thank you joan (: you have no idea how much that helped me <3